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Monday, December 03, 2007
I can't recall how many blogs I've had. I opened a few, but still, blogdrive always remained the better one. But I still don't really like blogdrive.. it's a bit... unorganize? And the layouts and everything, I don't know how to change it.
So I opened a new one, hopefully I'll stick to it. Even opened up a chatbox.
Click here for New Blog.
Sigh.. sure gonna miss blogdrive. Won't close this down though. I'm not used to blogger as I'm used to blogdrive, but i'll try to adapt.
Posted at 9:07:26 am by sabcyj
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Wednesday, November 28, 2007
17th November, performed at Leisure Mall. My performance was pretty good. I was nervous at first, but when I got on stage, and I saw nobody that I recognised, I was scared no more. Instead, I was smiling and smiling and danced so boldly. Surprisingly, many people watched us dance. I was expecting approximately 10 - 20 audiences, cos' I don't usually bother to watch these kinda performances when in a mall. The adrenalin rush and the satisfaction, nothing beats that feeling.
One of the top 5 finalist for the Disney's dance thingy. You know, the childish high school musical thingy. The movie's so annoying lorh.
As part of our pay, we got free vouchers to eat at A&W, lame like hell.
Friggin' small fries, one sausage in a plain bun and this small cup of rootbeer! No justice!
Teacher's other students from Cheras with me and Xin Wei.
I'm gonna perform again. I love performing.
Me.
Cheongs' muscular calves. Genetic.
The Iguana Exterminator.
Rambo-wannabe Vagimy.
Joyfully Constipated.
Another save the trees campaign. I know it's not a tree, do you?
I do the doodoo look.
Another DooDoo Look.
I don't know who's she trying to woo.
Me and Vagimy have been drinking... Iced Lemon Tea.
Utter irony. With air and torrid weather like that, you're bound to get emphysema, skin cancer, bronchitis, conjunctivitis and what not if they continue to provide such ridiculous buses. Hello? It's Malaysia???
Vagimy's friends.
Vagimy's awesome school. Awesome performance. I felt as if I was watching some prestigious award show like that. I'm beyond envious, her school reminds me so much of my primary school. The school's cafeteria is like a Japanese cafe.
 Out of boredom. Gosh, such dirty nails.
I created cleavage! I went and highlight the chest area and darkened it, and BOOM! I have cleavage!
I just love the way my eyes look in this pic, minus the dark circles and eyebags of course.
I would really love to get rhinoplasty and body sculpting. I keep consoling and bluffing myself that, broad and fat nose means fortune. Fat palms also mean fortune. Thick and big earlobes mean longevity. Heh. I don't care lorh, I still want a small nose. Dahlah face big, nose big summore.
This evening, I was really down. So Seaporn and his friend entertained me by serenading to me on the phone. Sweet, eh? How many people would do that for me when I'm down? Oh yeah, don't sms me, I won't reply. No credit.
OMG Nini, funny! You called when I was sleeping and I couldn't really process what you were saying I don't know why I was laughing. What what sleepover. HAHAHAHA. And while I was on the way to piano class, then only I got what you were saying. Oh! Writing about you only, came online. Longevity. Aquarians pact.
I'm addicted to Oprah. I watch Oprah at 9AM and at 1PM everday. I just love Oprah lar.
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I was researching on how to sleep better and Insomnia and all on the Net. And funnily, I fit all the symptoms. I also stumbled upon Holiday Stress and Depression. And to my horror, I fit ALL OF THE SYMPTOMS! I looked on Depression and Teen depression, again, I fit all of the symptoms (Except being promiscuous and being suicidal). I thought I was just sad and merely joking when I said I'm suffering from depression. And uncannily also, I seem glad to know that I have symptoms of Mental Illnesses. My dad said I have personality disorder for being proud of having such mental illnesses. I mean, now that I know what's probably wrong with me (though not severe enough), I just have to tell the whole world. And I'm glad and so damn proud that I know what're my problems. Anyways, what really, really caught my attention was Sleep Paralysis.
It says here that sleep paralysis is a common condition where people are paralyzed
at the onset of sleep or upon waking, often with terrifying
hallucinations. Sleep paralysis can
affect different people in many different ways. Knowing what to
expect and how it can affect you can make symptoms much easier to
cope with. Individual experiences vary, but some symptoms can
include: overwhelming feelings of evil entities watching you, an
intruder in your room, alien abductions, rape, an "old bag lady" or
"old hag" attacking or suffocating you in your sleep (it is not
known why it is always an old woman), and many other frightening
experiences that always take place while in a paralyzed state. (I have these frightening hallucinations/dreams/imaginations, but rarely get into a paralyzed state.)
Well, to me, it's associated more towards the paranormal. I remember Jeremy and quite a number of other Chinese telling me not to sleep (chest + back) facing the ceiling, fear that the ghost would 'press' you or 'sit' on you, thus paralysing the person. I've had that a number of times. And now, I don't sleep facing the ceiling anymore. And now, I have the "overwhelming feelings of evil entities watching you" and "an intruder in your room". I thought I watched too many horror movies or just happen to have a very scarily imaginative and paranoid mind. I never knew they had such thing called Sleep Paralysis. Damn, I just love the Internet!
For the past few days, I've been going to bed before 12AM. I laid in bed for soooo long, trying and trying to sleep. I slept for only 1 - 2 hours, and woke up all of a sudden, abruptly too. Then it's always somewhere near 3AM, or exactly at 3AM. Being superstitious and immensely paranoid, cos of an incident and also because of The Exorcism of Emily Rose. So they say that Jesus was cruxified at 3PM, so the reverse would be 3AM where Satan go and terrorize people. So...that's why I'm scared. I sleep with my bedlights on, brightening the whole room, thus causing me difficulty to fall asleep. So I tried switching the lights off. Amidst the darkness, I'd imagine stuffs. I'd suddenly hear imaginary noises or see imaginary white figures, then I'd immediately fumble for the lights. Never knew sleeping could be this difficult. And I always get really scared when the neighbour's dog starts barking non-stop. Other than ghosts, there'd be the phobia where someone else would break into the house or my room. Or, someone fixing a hidden camera in my room.
So, you say leh? How come my brothers and dad sleep so well and snoring so loudly, while I'm trying so hard to sleep. When I close my eyes, I'd have pictures in my mind, making me restless. When I open my eyes, my eyes are so damn tired and painful, then I close again. And on and on and on... The more sheeps I count, the more restless I become. The more I read, the more restless and imaginative I become. I tried 'emptying' my head and focusing on calm water. So I imagine a very calm pond in Utopia with small, gentle ripples. And then horh, the water suddenly will appear piranhas lar, mosquitoes lar, then got rocks lar, everything can happen!
Burgghhh... My face's full of larvae(s) now. Going for facial later. Not that it'll do much help, cos' not having enough sleep causes the whole problem and worsen everything. But just wanna go clean my skin lar. I'm pretty restless right now, that's why I talk so much right now. ARGHHHH. Ming Wai ahhh, where're yoU?
[Lots of pics next entry]
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